being real...

i was just thinking to myself that frankly if i choose not to listen to whatever people have to tell me about myself, i think nothing would have changed ba.. so i think a soften heart towards what is being said is very much needed.. if you don't have this kind of heart condition, how? actually very simple.. let God plow your heart until it's soft.. if you choose not to then it's just like God keep revealing to you through His words, through circumstances, etc that there is an attitude in you that He wants to address.. and yet you choose to sweep it aside or just focus on the possible actions that should take.. rather than really scrutinising your life to see that there is this sin in your life that you need to repent and change.. then you are really missing the whole point..

maybe you are still unable to see clearly what God is trying to show you in your life.. look around.. for eg prideful people actually hates people who are prideful too.. ironic rite? lol..

i am being very real here not because by nature i am such a person but i choose to be real cos i want to let people know that they ain't just the only one struggling with sins in their lives.. and i wanna be vulnerable to the people who loves me cos i know they can speak the very truth that i need to know into my life.. to be very frank, we are all vulnerable.. vulnerable to temptations, vulnerable to fall into the traps of sin, vulnerable to spiritual attacks, etc.. whether you choose to be vulnerable or acknowledge that you can be vulnerable.. it is a fact.. yeah.. be vulnerable to people who can help you when you feel trapped or to be vulnerable to temptations without any help around cos you choose to hide your vulnerability? you will have to choose for yourself.. it will make tons of difference..

but actually how many times can you not be trapped by your own emotions, take a back seat and look at situations and things in your life from a third person point of view? and if there isn't many times or even none.. is it because you are not capable of doing it? or are you choosing not to do it? frankly for me.. i very much is the second one.. especially i feel very shot at.. lol.. my fear is criticism and that very much stems from the pride in me.. and it is the very core of things that is preventing me from being fruitful and effective in my life.. from now onwards, i choose to be very real and frank with myself cos i don't want to be trapped anymore.. cos it isn't very fun.. but rather it is miserable to be trapped in this disillusion that i am better than others in some way or another.. but in fact, i am not cos i have fallen short of God's standards like everyone else no matter what the sin is in their lives.. and in fact pride is the sin that God hates most.. yet ironically, it is a sin that traps most or all man (man as in human beings)..

" 22 This is righteousness from God comes through faith in Jesus Christ to all who believe. There is no difference, 23 for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, 24 and are justified freely by His grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus."

- Romans 3:22-24-

i think this is a verse that i need to keep reminding myself as i grow in my walk with God.. cos i think i would easily think that i am more superior cos of the knowledge that i have of God and the closeness of relationship that i have with Him.. but actually it's never the case cos all these were only possible cos of God's grace and i have got no credit to it at all.. He already given me what i don't deserved.. and didn't give me the punishment that i deserve for my sins cos of His mercy.. i wanna remember all these cos i don't want to fall into the trap of pride in my life.. it's scary and miserable.. it causes destruction and isolation..

"13 To fear the Lord is to hate evil; I hate pride and arrogance, evil behaviour and perverse speech."

- Proverbs 8:13-

" 2 When pride comes, then comes disgrace, but with humility comes wisdom."

- Proverbs 11:2-

"18 Pride goes before destruction, a haughty spirit before a fall."

- Proverbs 16:18-

taking the chance to thank Him for loving me, who is the sinner, while hating the sin.. if not i will never be able to have this relationship with Him and a new life, and a life to the full.. i am looking forward to a breakthrough in my life as i repent and choose to make things right with God..



Growing in humility.. Breakthrough in progress.. Amen!!


Love,
Naomi