so what is it about?

it is never about who you were in the past..

it is also not about who you are going to become in the future..

so what is it about?

it is about who you are Now!!


cos

you can't change what you did in the past..

neither do you have power over what is going to happen in the future..

but

you have a choice of what to do Now!!


so

stop mourning or reliving the past..

also stop wondering what is to come in the future..

it is most important to live Now!!

where are you now?


Love,
Naomi

human heart...

have you ever ask yourself why you want to be part of a community so much?

cos of a longing that God created in us
a longing to know and be known
the greatest joy of the human race

yet
it became
the greatest fear of the human race
the day sin came into the picture

Sin always kill relationship

Fear of whether the other person can accept and love me for who i am
so we put on mask to make people think well of us

Ironically, we are only loved to the extent that we are known
it is only when we take off our mask that people are drawn to us

We have a choice in how much we want to make ourselves known


Dallas Willard writes
"God has placed the only key to the innermost parts of the human soul in its own hands and will never take it back Himself or give it to another. You may even be able to destroy the soul of another, but you will never unlock it against his or her will."

Credits to John Ortberg, "Everybody's
normal till you get to know them."

how much are you known to God today? you may say that the bible said that no thoughts, motives, actions or speeches are not known to God.. that is true.. but God just want to be your friend and He knows He can't force you into one with Him.. so He is asking you like He is asking Adam where is he in Genesis after the Fall.. He wants to know you as you allow Him to..

in the same way.. is there someone in your life that knows all about you? and also allowed to speak into your life? whether is it your closest friend or your other half..

are you seldom alone yet feeling lonely often? it is time to evaluate your life.. only when you are complete, you will never feel lonely.. that happens only when you are known by the Lord..


Be completely known to be completely loved


Love,
Naomi

love & life...

^"1If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. ²If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. ³If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing."

~1 Corinthians 13:1-3~




Without love,
Life amounts to zero.

Love,
Naomi

dirty laundries...

have you ever washed your own clothes with your own hands before? i just recently found some parallels between clearing up dirty laundries, and making sense of our lives and clearing up of our inner mess.. while washing my clothes.. lol.. so here we go..

we will always have things to make sense at the end of everyday and some mess inside us that we need to clean up.. just like we all have dirty laundries to clear everyday rite? then when we choose not to clear them, they get piled up.. in the same way, if we choose not to clear up our inner mess and make sense of our lives, they get piled up inside us too.. they will affect our lives, no matter how good we are at containing them within us.. (even though dirty laundries don't really affect our lives much, except for the fact that we will have less clothes to wear or recycle with, :P).. wait until the day that you want to clear them up, you will be so turned off by just looking at the mountains of 'dirty laundries' you have accumulated thus far.. it is physically draining to clear up just one bucket of clothes.. imagine having to clear 5 or more at one go? what more to say when it comes to clearing our inner mess.. we will surely be drained emotionally and mentally.. having to relive the emotions and recall whatever that have happened.. to a point, you might just give up cos there is really too much things to clear.. then it becomes a vicious cycle all over again..

coming to another side of it.. there are clothes that are harder to wash as compared to the others.. for example, the dye of cloth will sip when soaked in water or materials that need special treatment, etc.. thus people might have the tendency to avoid washing them or wearing them in the first place.. just as there are some issues in our lives that we find it too painful to face so we avoid clearing them or we just simply bury them up.. but in both cases (whether is it clearing dirty laundries or our inner mess), we forgot that if we avoid, we will never learn.. if it is because we don't know how to go about it, then we should seek God and seek biblical counsel (in the case of washing, ask experts on how to go about it).. if it is too painful, take it slowly, one step at a time.. clear each of them with God.. no one is rushing you.. and remember God is there to comfort you..

^"8Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. ⁹But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. ¹⁰That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong."

~2 Corinthians 12:8-10~

let always remember to clear our dirty laundries and inner mess everyday, Amen? :)


God's grace is sufficient for me...whee..


Love,
Naomi

lives changed...

There are testimonies of people in the video below... hope it will serve as an encouragement to believers out there like me.. there are still people out there hoping to make a difference for Christ.. let's forcefully advance the Kingdom together..

Majesty
Hillsong United

Majesty
Majesty
Your grace has found me just as I am
Empty-handed but alive in Your hands

Singing Majesty
Majesty
Forever I am changed by Your love
In the beauty of Your Majesty

the song "Majesty" is the starting song of the video.. it is a song that greatly touched my heart during one of the praise and worship session at Kuching's LC.. where God asked me, "when you are really empty-handed, are you still able to praise Me?".. i was like woah.. being very honest, i can't say i can right at this point in time.. which is precisely the reason why God asked me that question.. but i want to grow in my relationship with the Lord, that with nothing left, i can still praise Him.. cos my victory is in Him alone.. He is the reason i live, the reason i sing and the reason i worship..

i maybe poor in the worldly sense but i am rich in my soul.. that is what i wanna declare.. cos i have Jesus in my life..


Empty-handed but Alive in Your hands..


Love,
Naomi

A description of Jesus...

No one ever lived like Him
No one ever spoke like Him
No one was ever so compassionate to sinners as He was
No one ever welcomed the outcasts as He did

He set the laws on a higher plane
and His mercy is in proportion in keeping with it

He knows how to humble us without humiliating us
how to lift us up without flattering us


From Ravi Zacharias

there is one more sentence to it but i can't catch so i decided not to type it down.. but i find it so true about this description of Jesus.. it is also very interesting too.. so just want to share..


Jesus is ever so Himself always..


Love,
Naomi

i need You badly...

The Desert Song
Hillsong

This is my prayer in the desert
And all that's within me feels dry
This is the prayer in the hunger in me
My God is a God who provides

And this is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refined me Lord through the flames

And I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapons formed against me shall remain

I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my Victory and He is Here

And this is my prayer in the battle
And triumph is still on it's way
I'm a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand

All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

This is my prayer in the harvest
Where favor and providence flow
I know I am filled to be emptied again
The seed I've received I will sow

i'm vulnerable physically, emotionally and most likely spiritually too.. i knew attacks would come after the prayer and promise that i've made to God.. but i still let down my defenses.. but i am sure with God in my life.. as long as i choose to proclaim His name and believe in Him.. continuing to persevere in doing what is good, obeying and trusting in Him.. i will have victory.. pray together with me and for me.. to see breakthroughs and fruitfulness in my life and each of your lives..


God is my Victory and He is Here!!


Love,
Naomi

thankful...

sick yet thankful..
you must be thinking i am crazy eh.. fell sick still can be thankful about it.. and my grandaunt had this mentality.. she thinks that i waste money to go overseas to fall sick when i came back.. but to me, i felt that i never wasted any money at all.. it was all worth it.. to go on this leadership conference (LC) at Kuching, Sarawak.. really experienced God greatly and learn a lot from the leaders.. if God had not sustained me, i think i would not have been greatly ministered and also might end up being quarantine over at Kuching.. lol.. cos frankly have not rested well since Uni-YA camp.. sort of expected myself to fall sick actually.. thank God the sickness only became full blast when i came home.. also want to thank Him for sustaining me during service and speaking to me.. it was really a torture cos i was really feeling very sick.. want to thank my cg for their prayer.. and the caring brothers and sisters who looked out for me during the LC..

will share more about Uni-YA camp and LC in time to come when i recover..


sick but not defeated..


Love,
Naomi

The Freedom We Know...

The Freedom We Know
Hillsong

We're gonna dance dance dance
in the freedom we know
We're gonna dance dance
in the freedom we know
We're gonna dance dance dance
in the freedom we know
Because the freedom we know is gonna last forever

The world turns in all of its ways
But I'm soul set on a holy name
And when all earth is said and done
Still I will praise Him

There's no end to the love that He gives
And now broken dreams have life again
In the hope of the risen king
Let us praise Him

A Mystery unthinkable
But He took the fall just to save my soul
Now the love is the life I know
And on and on and on
We'll be singing

Soul set free in the one I love
Come on come on
And let the whole earth sing in the freedom we know
Come on come on and praise Him

come, come all the lost and the found
Let us rise up with a holy sound
All the earth unified as one
Just to praise Him

In full view with nothing to hide
Like a city on a hill we're gonna shine
in the light of the freedom
Let us praise Him

We're gonna dance dance dance
in the freedom we know
We're gonna dance dance
in the freedom we know
We're gonna dance dance dance
in the freedom we know
Because the freedom we know is gonna last forever

i'm gonna dance in the freedom i know cos it is gonna last forever.. it is a freedom that comes from Jesus that free us from the bondage of sin..


Hallelujah!!


Love,
Naomi

The Power of Your Name...

The Power of Your Name
Lincoln Brewster

Surely children weren't made for the streets
And fathers were not made to leave
Surely this isn't how it should be
Let Your Kingdom come

Surely nations were not made for war
Or the broken meant to be ignored
Surely this just can't be what You saw
Let Your Kingdom come
Here in my heart

I will live
To carry Your compassion
To love a world that's broken
To be Your hands and feet
I will give
With the life that I've been given
And go beyond religion
To see the world be changed
By the power of Your name

Surely life wasn't made to regret
And the lost were not made to forget
Surely faith without action is dead
Let Your Kingdom come
Lord break this heart

Your name
Is a shelter for the hurting
Jesus Your name
Is a refuge for the weak
Only Your name
Can redeem the undeserving
Jesus Your name
Holds everything I need

sometimes as Christians we forget that Christianity is not a religion and we need to go beyond religion.. cos God called us to love and show compassion.. love Him and love His people.. whether they are lost or found.. we are to have compassion especially for the lost.. cos that is His heartbeat.. if we really is growing in our relationship with Him.. we will know His heartbeat.. and the things that break His heart will indeed break ours..



Love a world that's broken..


Love,
Naomi

When I look into Your Holiness...

When I look into Your Holiness
Integrity's Hosanna! Music

When I look into Your holiness
 When I gaze into Your loveliness
When all the things that surround
Become shadows in the light of You.
        
When I found the joy of reaching Your heart
When my will becomes enthralled in Your Love
When all the things that surround
Become shadows in the light of You

I worship You, I worship You
The reason I live is to worship You

The reason I live is to worship You...


Love,
Naomi

control...

letting off control is probably the most beautiful thing to happen..

has this thought ever crossed your mind? even if it have, the chances i would say would be seldom.. cos as human beings, we like to be in control.. not because we really do have the control.. but because we are scared of what is to come and scared of losing control.. even though nothing exactly is in our control.. except the actions that we take and the decisions that we make..

letting go of the control that we tightly hold on to is what we need to do.. cos in reality we are just struggling to grasp the air.. God is the one that is in control.. and we need to let Him be who He is.. let Him do what He do best.. we just need to trust in Him and have faith.. make the right decisions and do the right things with the right understanding behind.. if we can't do them or make them, we need to make sense of why we can't.. to make sense and learn from the situations and things that happened.. rather than thinking how can we be in better control the next time round.. remember that let go is never a passive thing to do.. faith and deeds should come together.. :)

let go..
let His will be done..
living life in His best..

letting away control...


Love,
Naomi

vulnerability...

The Lord, my God
the Creator of the Universe
Almighty God
made Himself vulnerable..

God made Himself vulnerable
when He gave us free will

God made Himself vulnerable
the moment He chose to pursue after us

God made Himself vulnerable
cos He loves us too much

God made Himself vulnerable to you, how about you?


Love,
Naomi

First...

First
City Harvest

I love because You first love me
I live because of what You gave
You died, showed me how to live
Your mercy taught me to forgive

You came and pour yourself so free
Your blood washed away my shame
And now I can live again
I'm more of You and less of me

My First Love
Forever You will be
My First Breath
You’re the life in me
My First Joy
The world can never take from me
My covenant with You, Jesus

Your love fall down
Your love fall down
Your love fall down
Over Me

such a beautiful song.. this song came into my mind when i was doing my things.. reminded of God's love for me.. cos He first love me then can i love.. and learn to love let He loves.. i can live a new life cos of what He has done on the cross and has given up His life.. because He forgives me then can i forgive.. He is my first love, first breath and first joy.. no one can take it from me.. unless i choose to give it up myself.. thank You, God for reminding me to always to go back to You.. to the source of everything.. and to be more of You and less of me.. dying to myself each day..

^"5 "I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. ⁶ If anyone does not remain in me, he is like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up, thrown into the fire and burned. ⁷ If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you. ⁸ This is to my Father's glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples."

~John 15:5-8~

My first love, forever You will be..


Love,
Naomi