seems that..

you might think that you have learned what God is speaking to you.. yet it seems that it isn't so.. this is a very real issue.. that many believers struggle.. especially as they grow in maturity.. it also becomes easier for them to fall into the subtle trap..

reminded once again about judging people.. who am i to judge whether someone deserves a certain thing.. even if i have been there done that doesn't mean i have a stand to say anything.. we all have our fair share of struggles.. whether is it obvious or subtle.. whether is it big or small.. we were all once trapped.. we fell and we stand up again.. we have our own sets of things that we need to learn.. no one is more perfect or more privileged than the other.. we are all the child of God.. He loves us all the same.. each as much as He loves Jesus.. saying or even thinking if a person deserves the things that he/she has, is the same as questioning what God is doing in their lives.. questioning that if God can transform that person.. ironically.. it is never a question.. God CAN transform each and everyone of us.. if we allow Him to..

usually people who judges others, are those who want to feel a sense of superiority over the others.. thinking that they are better in some way or another.. that's human nature.. putting self above others.. while what God says is the exact opposite.. putting others above self.. and that's what He did too.. by sending Jesus to the cross for us..

i find myself quite pathetic at times when i realise that i am comparing myself to the people around me.. even to the extent of judging them.. it makes me wonder where do i place my security.. being God's child or being able to outshine others? lol.. there is nothing wrong to have the spirit of excellence in our service to God.. wanting to use our gifts to serve the Lord.. but there is only a thin line between doing it for your own glory and for God.. many people after serving for some time will have a certain kind of mix motives.. cos of many reasons.. i would have to admit i am one of them.. i admit it openly not because i am indignant about it.. but i just want to be utterly frank with myself and with the people around..

"Love your neighbour as yourself." (Matthew 22:39) this is an all encompassing verse that God has given to us.. it is the second greatest commandments He gave us.. we ought to love the people around us like how we would love ourselves.. we forgive ourselves of what we have done wrong easily.. and that is what we should do to the people around us.. we always save the best for ourselves.. but now we should save the best for the others.. we don't judge ourselves so we also shouldn't judge the others..
it might be just a simple statement.. yet for one to be able to learn it and put it into practice in their lives, would take a long time.. it might even take a lifetime for some of us.. this verse has captured me since i was a new believer.. yet until now i can't even say i have done even 40% of it.. however, i trust that as i continue to grow my relationship with God.. and let His presence fill me and my life.. i will be able to do it because He who is in me is powerful, filled with love and great.. thank You for Your grace, love and mercy..


Love my neighbour as myself..


Love,
Naomi